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Ignorance is bliss.

21 Apr

I’ve always wondered what it would be like to be in love,

to experience the fairy-tales I used to dream of.

But now that I’m older my dreams are haunted,

all I see is hurt, and people who feel unwanted.

I would give anything just to be a little girl again,

then I wouldn’t know that all the good stories in life are just pretend.

A dance?

19 Apr

He asked me for a dance. He was serious. He said he was gonna drive over in the middle of the night just to dance with me. Romantic right? Then again not so much. How do you look at a guy that is so sweet and puts you on this pedestal like you’re a queen and tel him you don’t feel the same? You don’t. I told him I’m not feeling well, which isn’t a lie. I’ve been feeling horrible all day. I think I’m depressed. Not like I want to die, more like the fact that I make stupid choices makes me wish someone would kill me.

Bad decision?

19 Apr

Well, I finally did it. Whether or not that is a good thing I haven’t decided. I just don’t understand how I could allow myself to be so insecure. To let a man own me. I don’t need men. Or women. Or ANYONE. Who am I kidding?